An exercise in emotional detachment

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This was a shoot I did today. Gleeful with the fact I managed to get my camera out, I thought that I might as well use the opportunity to update my blog too. It’s weird how out of practise you can get with self-portraiture. I have been half busy, half lazy, mulling over too many ideas, but not implementing them, which dangerously leads to overall creative impotence…

I think I could have got much better images, but two cigarettes was my limit. I don’t smoke and I found it quite gross to be anywhere near the smoke. I’m not even sure why I wanted to use cigarettes, I guess it was my chosen symbol for the theme of emotional detachment, and I have to allow for the fact that on a more facile level, it sets a bad example (smoking is really a stupid thing to do). But my images are intended as art, not advertising.

Inspired by Tom Hoops’ images here and here.

I have been behind with writing my first newsletter for my members, which doesn’t necessarily have an impact on everyone who has signed up so far… as at least I haven’t been bugging you at all (wink). However, I did promise a prize to a name drawn monthly at random, so I have drawn a name, and the winner is:

Irena Hindy

My first newsletter will be coming this month. Here is the link to sign up.

Here’s some more images from the same shoot as the image above. They’re each processed slightly differently and I think they each suggest different things, and overall I did prefer the main image above, for its anonymity and therefore how it rightly suggests that the fag is intended as more of a symbol in a conceptual image, thematically based on recent changes in my life, rather than a prop in a literal narrative.

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Posted in Inspirations - References to other artists, Website and members' list-related on April 4th, 2010 | 13 Comments |

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Comments for “An exercise in emotional detachment”

    1. Marco Correa
      6:03 pm on April 4th, 2010

      Great series Aniela, loving that third shot!

    2. Rossina Bossio
      7:43 pm on April 4th, 2010

      Your choice was definitely the best; I think indeed the fag on the face suits the theme and it makes it less literal. And I Love the tones! Just faved it on Flickr :) (yes I still visit Flickr and fave stuff).

      …Gosh I need to chat with you!!

    3. Irena
      9:20 pm on April 4th, 2010

      Oh my gosh! I never win anything!!!!! Never!!! Ever!!!! :-D
      ( I guess I can’t use THAT statement any more!…he he he)

      I find it quite relieving to learn that I am not alone in the “too many ideas, not implemented – leading to creative impotence”. It sums it rather nice for me. :-)
      I like the pic you chose for the same reason you chose it in the first place: that puff of smoke covers your face so completely, yet we can still kind of see you through it…being there but not really, emotional detachment – just like you said.

      (You say you based the concept for this from your recent life changes, I hope that doesn’t mean something bad happened.).

    4. angela
      10:07 pm on April 4th, 2010

      great shot. i remember smoking way back in the day. i think i did smoke for the numbness that a cigarette provided. thanks for the inspiration…not to start smoking again, but for self-portraiture. i did try stepping in front of the lens ONE time on my adventure this weekend. bye for now.

    5. jestem
      10:15 pm on April 4th, 2010

      Fun. The sacrifices one makes for art. Happy Easter.

    6. John Lever
      4:27 am on April 5th, 2010

      Wonderful departure for you, Natalie. The one that you published on flickr is probably indeed the best image, but I somewhat prefer the third of the set, the one of you seated on the floor. That image has more of a feel of an authentic shot of a smoker. All of them are great though!

    7. glenn
      7:47 pm on April 5th, 2010

      I happened across your website, I do not know how, and like your photos !

    8. Lainey1
      1:53 pm on April 6th, 2010

      You should smoke a cigar. That would be funny, and chic at the same time. (Don’t really smoke it though; will make you puke.)

      Love your photos. Well, I always see them on Flickr. Now I can see them here too.

      I like the one of you sitting on the floor best. It reminds me of movie star shots from the 1960’s. I like the first one too, but the one on the floor is my fave.

      Congrats on your new website!

    9. Arty Fucking Smokes
      2:22 am on April 8th, 2010

      I think the pose in the monochrome version conveys detachment best of all. It’s as if you’re lost in the pleasure of smoking and aren’t paying any attention to the viewer.

    10. Miss Aniela
      10:19 am on April 8th, 2010

      Only if I were a smoker ;)

    11. Philip Tsai
      1:47 am on April 10th, 2010

      Long live the smoker !!

      May God Bless the smoker !!

      I smoke, therefor I’m !!

    12. Guy.E
      5:38 pm on April 11th, 2010

      First Heard of you on TCF and it was a great interview, you’ve inspired me to look more at portraits and selfportraits, anyhow i love th 3rd photo in the set, the black and white sets it of just that bit more! Good Work, keep ‘Shooting’ !

    13. Shadz
      5:34 am on April 13th, 2010

      Great series. I know you don’t smoke but it suits you. Hahaha. Loved em, especially the third shot.

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